Tomorrow's the Big Day

Tomorrow (12/1) is the big day - surgery day.  I'm scared, I'm nervous - but mostly I'm excited.  And the good Lord is reminding me of why I'm doing this - for the past 2 days my arthritis has flared up and my hips have been killing me....

Tomorrow, I'll have Andrew take "before" pictures and when I figure out how - I'll post them on here.

In the mean time - onward.  Have to avoid the sabatouers that have been bringing pizza, cookie dough and who knows what else into the house.  Actually just one person - but I'm sure she'll stop soon.  No worries - I can handle it.

Save the Date!

Surgery is scheduled.  December 1st at 9:00!  I'm scared, I'm nervous.  But mostly, I'm excited. 

We're shopping today for a goal dress - I think a size 12 is reasonable.  I'll hang it on the closet door as motivation for when things get tough.

I know this won't be easy.  I know it's not the "magic answer".  It's a tool to help me reach my goals.  Can you imagine - no insulin shots, no list of medications a mile long, no mask to sleep in at night, no pain in my hips and feet.  Being able to hike with Andrew when we go camping.  Being able to travel and enjoy seeing the sights and not having to sit down every few minutes because my back and hips hurt.  Just plain - feeling better!  I can't wait...

Baby Steps

The approval request should be filed with the insurance company by now.  Just waiting for approval.  In the meantime I'm taking baby steps towards the changes I'll have to make once I have the surgery.

For example, we invested in a new set of dishes with smaller plates.  Instead of eating dinner off a huge dinner plate - we're using (rather I'm using) the smaller dessert plates.  Had just enough last night for dinner to be satisfied but not stuffed. 

Soon I'm going to go shopping for my dream dress.  Nothing fancy - something that I can wear to work or out and about with Andrew.  Just a nice dress that I've always dreamed of being able to wear in a size 12.  I think a size 12 is a reasonable goal.  Not too heavy and not uber thin either.  I'll hang it on my closet door as motivation for when the going gets tough.

Wish the insurance company would hurry up.  I want to get going.....

My Last Dr. Appt

I had my last pre-approval dr appointment today.  Now I just have to sit back and wait for insurance approval - and try not to worry....  Easier said than done.

I'm definitely excited - a little scared and a little worried - but mostly excited.  I try to picture my new life and all the things I'll be able to do.  Andrew has promised me a hot air balloon ride.  I'll get to shop for clothes in a real store - off the rack.  No insulin shots!

The books the psychologist recommended said you need to find a new "something" to replace the food that you won't be having anymore.  I picture my "something" as exercise.  Believe it or not - my birthday (49) was on Monday.  I celebrated by going to an exercise class.  It was a chair exercise class and a lot of fun.  I was talking to Cristine (the friend who started the class) and when I get this weight off and get more fit - I may start helping with the classes... Me - lead an exercise class!!  Can you imagine?!

So, while I wait for insurance approval - I'm going to try to eat healthy, exercise more and think positive thoughts.  I hope it doesn't take too long.  I want to get started on this new life.