Journaling didn't work. It just made me more frustrated.
But I was laying in bed last night after having eaten ice cream - my blood sugar was high, I felt like crap and I realized I don't want to feel this way. I liked it when I was eating healthy. My blood sugar was under control, I had more energy, I wanted to exercise, I wanted to get out and move around, I didn't hurt all the time.
I went to sleep determined to get up and start over - having a healthy breakfast, drinking my water, no snacking. Then I get up and my water is gone, there's no bananas left, my throat hurts, my hip hurts, I feel like crap. And I just want to cry and eat.
Is this a test to see if I have the willpower and control to not react negatively?
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